I’ve had quite an internal struggle about posting this but in the end I decided that I needed to get this off my chest and be completely honest with all of you. I’ve had a really tough time with anxiety recently. I used to be the biggest worry wart, I had panic attacks getting on planes, I made my parents do mock fire drills, I was a nightmare. I worked really hard to overcome all of it but recently it’s become an issue again. I’m good with a lot of things but when I get in the car I get insanely nervous. I have had fights with so many people about my fake passenger brake, my clutching the seat and my general anxiety in the car.
Today was pouring rain, I can’t handle driving in the rain (my driving recorded clearly proves this!) I drive so slow, I am so worried about crashing, flipping or just feeling out of control. Tonight I needed to get to work, there was no excuse I could use to get out of driving on the freeway in pouring rain. I sat in my car hoping for some magical way out of this and I finally did. I sat and I prayed. “Please God protect me on this journey, keep me safe, out of harms way and keep my fellow drivers safe on their journeys as well.”
Once I said that a huge weight was lifted off my shoulders, I knew I had a wonderful protector in my passenger seat and I could keep on keeping on. My word over the next couple weeks will be conquered: I need God to help me conquer this anxiety, to show me the path I need to be on, and to help me get back on the right path.
What is your word?